The definition from the dictionary. Ennui = a feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction. This is me lately. Fairly often actually, as I tend soar and crash. It of course annoys poor Clint, because he asks me what is wrong, and I say "nothing". But I'm not trying to be obnoxious. I really can't put a finger on it. It's just feeling a general sense of blah. I haven't been sleeping well, and I'm sure that has something to do with it. In general, life is great. Actually, reminding myself of how blessed I am usually snaps me out of it a little. It's sometimes hard to remember when you have little kids at home, and you are trying to take care of them, and be a great mom, and there is always something everyday that you do wrong. At least me. And sometimes I deal with the challenges well, and sometimes (usually the times when I feel "ennui-ish") I am snappish rather than patient with Ashton's antics.
Well, I did figure out something ths week. My kids aren't the get up and play for a while type. they instantly want breakfast (I'm told I was the same way). I'm NOT a morning person. What I've been doing is getting up and turning music on right away in the kitchen. It makes me feel better, and Ashton talks to me less, which gives me time to wake up. we usually listen to a German A Capella group I really like, called "Wise Guys," or the Beatles. It's helped so far to make our mornings go a little better.
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I don't know what I'll do when I have to get up and get going. I shouldn't tell you that Cubby and I often lay in bed (him watching cartoons and me snoozing) until--way late. It's actually better when we get up and going, but I have no control when there is nothing written in my agenda. Here's some milk and a bagel, and back to sleep I go...either he thinks we're snuggling and I'm awesome, or he sees right through me and loves me anyway. When I grow up I want to be the mom that gets up and cheerfully fixes pancakes!
p.s. take comfort in knowing that however you think you failed on any given day, your kids were fed and safe and knew they were your number 1 priority because you were there with them! In other words, it's harder for you to fail than you think...but you know that.
Music always help lift my spirits! I think feeding kids can take a lot out of you. There are times I feel like a cook in a restaurant! I"m sure your kids appreciate having you there, always ready to help them!
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